Saturday, September 27, 2008

What does the future hold for the Rockwoods?

This is the question we have been asking ourselves since he cut off his dumb fingers. I wish we could go back. I hope we can figure it out soon it's slightly depressing. I thought we had it all figured out, but I knew Curtis wasn't sure he wanted to go to school for industrial design and I was just hoping that we had a plan cause it's better then not having one. Then he was talking to a friend about school. I didn't know this but our little Curtis was holding out on me. Apparently he wanted to be an anesthesiologist. Who knew that was coming? I always saw him doing creative things like Industrial design. Anyway, school for that is like 12 years. So he is going to do nurse anesthesiology. It's half the school and still really good pay. The only question is where are we going to go. And I thought Provo was where we were supposed to be. They won't accept him with his great gpa being so low because he dropped out of 2 different schools. I was all prepared to leave this life for a much more challenging one. We were going to sell the house live in a tiny apartment and have our neighbors hate us, because our daughter is so loud. I was ready to leave all the wonderful people I met to dreading making friends again. The one good thing I was looking forward to was living closer to family. I don't know what's going to happen now. I don't feel sure about anything anymore. The future I mean. Now that I have depressed you all, I ask you now for advise about what I can do as a mother and a wife to support Curtis and show him I am ready for the challenges we may face, even though this is the hardest one yet. He is so upbeat about it, it's kind of amusing to watch. Especially when he first lost his finger, he's such a show off.

4 comments:

Callie said...

Hi Sarah! You sound exactly like me 5 years ago!! We went through the same uncertanties, as Tom was deciding what he wanted to be when he grew up...I can tell you from my own experience, things will work themselves out. They just will. Trust in Curtis, and trust that the Lord is telling him what he needs to do to support his family. It also requires A LOT of patience at times, but that's all part of the lesson learned. We ended up moving for Tom to go to school, and then again, here, after he graduated. We had two little ones at the time as well. It was a long road, but we learned so much along the way, and it was so worth it in the end. Life has so many crazy twists and turns in it, but somehow when you have faith, you always end up being where you are meant to be!
The health idustry is a great field to get in to also, especially with the economy being so wacky...it sounds morbid, but there will never be a shortage of sick people! I am glad Tom chose a health care profession, I feel much more secure today then I ever thought I would need to!

Tom and Mel said...

I think Callie gave you great advice! I'd listen to her! I also definately feel for ya b/c I remember how hard it was to not know what we'd be doing for sure with Tom's schooling and occupation. His occupation still isn't concrete. At least Curtis is so positive about things!

did you see the pics on my blog? I think a lot of them turned out cute. Thanks so much! You're so good! I would've loved more with Tom but hopefully we can try again soon.

Are you coming to Pilates this afternoon? You should! :-)

On the Flip Side said...

I saw the pictures you took for Mel. They are so darling. Great job. Good Luck with all of your life's uncertainties. Ten years into our marriage when I thought we had the "what I want to be when I grow up" problem figured out, I was wrong. I suggest lots of prayers and faith! --Rochelle

On the Flip Side said...

Sarah I don't have your e-mail address but as I was looking for ideas for sharing time I found this and I thought it might be helpful. It is a sharing time idea from the Friend from 1998. The believe it was the last idea. Here is the link http://www.lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?vgnextoid=21bc9fbee98db010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD&locale=0&sourceId=e8316934b34bb010VgnVCM1000004d82620a____&hideNav=1

--Rochelle