Saturday, September 27, 2008
This is the question we have been asking ourselves since he cut off his dumb fingers. I wish we could go back. I hope we can figure it out soon it's slightly depressing. I thought we had it all figured out, but I knew Curtis wasn't sure he wanted to go to school for industrial design and I was just hoping that we had a plan cause it's better then not having one. Then he was talking to a friend about school. I didn't know this but our little Curtis was holding out on me. Apparently he wanted to be an anesthesiologist. Who knew that was coming? I always saw him doing creative things like Industrial design. Anyway, school for that is like 12 years. So he is going to do nurse anesthesiology. It's half the school and still really good pay. The only question is where are we going to go. And I thought Provo was where we were supposed to be. They won't accept him with his great gpa being so low because he dropped out of 2 different schools. I was all prepared to leave this life for a much more challenging one. We were going to sell the house live in a tiny apartment and have our neighbors hate us, because our daughter is so loud. I was ready to leave all the wonderful people I met to dreading making friends again. The one good thing I was looking forward to was living closer to family. I don't know what's going to happen now. I don't feel sure about anything anymore. The future I mean. Now that I have depressed you all, I ask you now for advise about what I can do as a mother and a wife to support Curtis and show him I am ready for the challenges we may face, even though this is the hardest one yet. He is so upbeat about it, it's kind of amusing to watch. Especially when he first lost his finger, he's such a show off.